Pools, beaches, bathing suits, dresses, shorts, and tank tops. A short defining list of the summer season. However, my summer list used to be different. Mine consisted of long sleeved shirts, jeans, sweatshirts, and sweaters. Summer meant a whole season of extra insecurities with myself. A season of anxiety.
I didn’t only cover up my insecurities with clothing, but with hatred and anger as well. I wouldn’t dare go to the beach or a pool. I would say I hated summer clothes because they weren’t my style, I said I didn’t like the beach because the sand bothered me, and I would stay indoors because it was “too hot”. Excuse after excuse after excuse!
This year however, I am ready for summer. I am no longer trying to “get through” the season, but ready to embrace it and ready for experiences that are yet to be had. Just another reason I can add to my very long list of why changing my life has been the best thing I ever did for myself. Here’s to living!